感恩

一直没动手，可是心里一直在跟你说话。原谅我的懒惰和不知感恩。

我为家人感谢你！谢谢你把天国的盼望放在我心里，告诉我当说的话。也谢谢那些为我祷告的人，他们的爱让我软弱的时候不放弃！

谢谢你引导我的脚步！我曾说过把日程安排交给你，按你的意思，不按我的意思。我知道你的旨意是美好的，你的时间也不会错！

在朝阳堂唱了红本本，几年没翻开过，里面的歌许久不唱，原来这样动听。

My song to you today:

你为我离天庭，尊贵荣耀光明
放下丰富权柄，降临尘世卑贫
你舍所有为我 为我，我舍什么为你？
你舍所有为我 为我，我舍什么为你？

为我你不顾己，来到世界阴翳
且无栖身之地，被放在马槽里
不顾自己为我 为我，我怎样对待你？
不顾自己为我 为我，我怎样对待你？

你路崎岖难行，常遇逼迫艰辛
受人顶撞刺心，孤单无人同情
你受羞辱为我 为我，我当怎样为你？
你受羞辱为我 为我，我当怎样为你？

你为我受拘禁，被人戏弄欺凌
在十架上被钉，遍身鲜血漓淋
倾倒生命为我 为我，我献什么给你？
倾倒生命为我 为我，我献什么给你？

你既这样爱我，舍去一切为我，
你现今在父右边，时常祈求为我
愿否献上我心归你，全心尊你为主？
愿否献上我心归你，全心尊你为主？

阿们

Your Grace

下午收到大信封，打开，见到支票，呆住了。这件事过了一年，公司快被卖了，我都忘了，你还记得。我算什么，你竟如此眷顾我？！我不是手洁心清的人，常常骄傲，常常埋怨。求你赦免，求你怜悯！

我想你所求的，就是下个星期回家的时候，有爱心，有智慧。每次与家人在一起都软弱，我不求别的，只求可以告诉他们那个好消息。你使我刚强壮胆！

你的女儿苏恩佩，说了一段很鼓励我的话：我们所需要的是正视痛苦的勇气，忍受痛苦的力量，在痛苦中获得的安危与鼓励，从痛苦中所产生的良善的果子。

帮助我定睛于你的恩典！

问

我觉得自己很任性。
如愿以偿了，你任凭我吗？还是你的旨意给我开路？
总之，还是挺高兴的。
感谢你！

Depression

Depressed today, from morning to evening. Struggled with trivial things. Suddenly, I lose my temper and direction. What on earth I'm doing here？ W talked to me. On the way home, I asked you: did his words come from you? Is it actually you who talked to me this afternoon, through him? Or Satan's lie to make me work harder and harder? How do I rely on you?

Dear Jesus, you talked to Father every day, you knew Him totally. You knew His heart. You knew your own way, although tough. But what about me? I don't know my way ahead. I only know you. Sometimes I can't see your guidance. Can't hear your voice either.

I want to escape from those tough decisions I have to make. I want to go home for several days, to have a rest, and to think over about those things. Am I too willful?

This verse came to my mind. "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." If it's your will, I'd like to deny myself. I feel exhausted! Give me your peace and strength! And your answer!

Your Glory

I saw your glory in XX and CM's wedding yesterday!
Dear Jesus, without your Crucifixion, how can we know what true love is?
I saw your holiness too. Marriage is holy. You want us to be holy.
I also saw your blessing to those who love you.
I'm waiting for you. Dear Jesus, you are my bridegroom.
You have given your life to me, what's more can I ask for?
Stay with me. I do need you!
If I drift apart, do bring me back with your love!

I saw your glory in our MIT08 sharing meeting today! The joy from you overflew.
It's my honor to share what you have done in my life, not only in Myanmar.
May everybody see your glory! Lord, use me! I'm here!

I feel love, your gentle love from Olivia's email.
Dear Jesus, bless our group. May we grow in your love!

My song to you today:

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace that I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know the weakenesses I see in me will be stripped away by the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

爱你是我的喜乐

颓废了一个星期，感觉被困住了。无力拿起荒漠甘泉和圣经，难以喜乐起来。
这种情况不是第一次发生了：明明知道你在那里，等着我来（你实在是我的避难所），可悖逆的心就不愿转过去。求你赦免，求你怜悯！

这首歌在脑子里，我知道我的喜乐来自于你，只有你能给我喜乐！
原谅我常常转向自以为能带给我暂时快乐的东西。
求你帮助我不离开你，把你当作爱人和最好的朋友！

My song to you today:

亲爱的宝贵耶稣 你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引 爱你是我的喜乐