Home tonight

Dear Heavenly Father,

I read "the Prodigal Son" and "the Prodigal God" last week. I know clearly that I've been out of the long and dark tunnel.  Thank you!


"Healing begins when, in the face of our own darkness, we recognize our helplessness and surrender our need for control.......we face what is, and we ask for mercy." Thank you for taking away my straw that I always want to clutch at.  I know you have listened to my prayer.

In Nouwen's book, he mentioned: Isn't it true that there are times for me, as in the life of the younger son, when I simply need to go off for a while? I believe you love each of me a daughter or a son who is leaving and returning constantly.  The more I become sensitive to my own journey the more I realize that I'm leaving and coming back every day, every hour.  My mind wanders away but eventually return; my heart leaves in search of affection and returns sometimes broken; my body get carried away in its desires then sooner or later return.  It's never one dramatic life moment but a constant series of departures and returns.

The most important thing is: I've come back! and I come back without fear because of your unconditional love! I will stay home tonight, tomorrow and forever!

Help me write a story of the elder son.  I'm more like him!

My face is a mask I order to say nothing
About the fragile feelings hiding in my soul.
Quotation from "Home Tonight".